Sunday, August 18, 2013

Grief.


"Grief fills the room up of my absent child,


Lies in his bed, walks up and down with me,

Puts on his pretty look, repeats his words,

Remembers me of his gracious parts,

Stuffs out his vacant garments with his form."

William Shakespeare

My creativity has taken a major shot to the gut this past week or so. We lost a foster child that we intended to adopt, after exactly nine months in our care, with not a glance in our direction by her biological family. I cared for that little girl like she were my own flesh and blood. The adoption papers were drawn up. I was as in love with her as I am with my own biological children, and now that we're without her, our house feels broken. When I sent her away with the social worker, I sent away a piece of my heart, and the simple fact that I will never see her again cripples me.

I know that all of my readers are waiting with baited breath for book 3 of the This & That Series (Candace's story,) and I vow that I will write it...eventually. But right now, it is all I can do to keep from falling apart at the seams. Grief is a fickle b*tch, people. It rears it's ugly head right when you least expect it, and it sucker punches when you think you've got it all figured out.

I consider myself a fairly strong person. I grew up in a tumultuous home, got married young, got divorced young, raised two kids by myself before remarrying. I've faced having a child diagnosed with Autism, and the challenges that raising a special needs child can present. I've seen hard times, and I've seen pain. But nothing--I mean nothing--compares to losing a child. And though I've never lost a child to death...losing a child to an uncertain and potentially dangerous and detrimental future from which I am banished feels as close to death as I can get without a damned coffin.

I will write book 3 in the This & That Series. I promise you, my dear, loyal readers. I will never let down all of you--because, simply put: without each of you, I would be a basket case by now. It is your reviews (good and bad,) comments, and messages via Twitter and Facebook that have kept me going through what I will forever refer to as the hardest experience of my entire life. And I won't leave you (and my brilliant editor) hanging. Candace's story will be told. I promise. I just need to take some time for both of us (Candace and I) to grieve a little bit.

I promise to keep you all posted. And please share your thoughts on Baby & Bump and Apples & Oranges with your friends. Help spread the word about these books that have meant so much to me, and have gotten me though the last few months of my life without climbing into a clock tower with a rifle. In the meantime, I am going to do some soul searching. Find whatever helps me heal this ache in my heart. Once I've done that, back to writing I'll be.

Thanks for everything. <3


Thursday, May 9, 2013

Another Abercrombie & Fitch rant...

Mike Jeffries, CEO of Abercrombie & Fitch (see post below for their views on "fat", "ugly" people) says he only wants attractive people wearing his clothes, & that they burn all of their unsold items, because it would be bad for their image to donate it, & have poor people walking around in it.

So......you only want good looking people to wear your clothes?

Mike Jeffries, CEO of A&F......and a potato face. 


Um....awkward.

Ugliness apparently spreads from the inside out, dude. You be fugly. Reeeeally fugly. Good luck with that.


Friday, March 15, 2013

Argh.

I just finished a trilogy that I HIGHLY recommended to you all about a year ago. I wrote blog after blog, singing it's praises.....



And I've been waiting on pins and needles for the third and final installment for this trilogy.

It came out last week, and (of course) I read the crap out of it.....

And last night I finished it.

*SIGH*


To say I was let down by the last book would be the understatement of the year. Now, I know some say that authors should be supportive of other authors--at any cost--giving them good reviews even when you didn't enjoy the books.

I don't believe this.

As an author, I have gotten some pretty scathing reviews. Some have ticked me off, others have made me cry. But over all...I've taken it. Reviews go hand in hand with publishing books, and if I can't take a bad one, then I've got no business publishing books. Period.

Remember this: JOYOUS READS

Yeah. Those are my feelings on bad reviews in a nutshell.

So anyway...I really struggled last night with how to review this last book in the trilogy. I wanted to praise the author for stellar writing. Because talent drips off of this woman like sweat in August, and that's a fact. She's amazing. But on this last book....she really dropped the ball. It felt like she simply lost interest, and walked away from the computer. There was no conclusion whatsoever. For any of the plot points. None. Nada. Nothing.



I wanted to scream. And cry.

True story.

So............today, since so many of you are asking me what I thought of the last installment of the Delirium Trilogy, by Lauren Oliver, I am posting a link to my review here: Goodreads!

My final thoughts are this: Ms. Oliver is amazing, and I can only hope to have a tenth of her talent someday. Her world building skills are stellar. Her word usage is at times poetic. However......she ended the story poorly, and left me--as a loyal fan, and paying customer for all three of her books--completely unsatisfied with the ending.

That being said...grab the books. They're worth the read, and you won't regret spending your time reading them. They're exquisite and very creative. However...you'll likely want to punch someone in the throat after you read her crappy ending to the series.

Good luck, peeps.

Thursday, March 7, 2013

Why I write what I write...

I've been asked recently (and repeatedly) why I write 'closed-door-bedroom-scenes' in my books, and why I have yet to read the ever-popular 50 Shades of Grey series, and the like, and am I opposed to fan fiction that would take my characters back into the bedroom for the great sex the apparently deserve :) ...and I've been avoiding those questions because I'm not in the habit of diving too deep into my personal beliefs. 

However, because I received my fifth (yes, my 5th) email last night chastising me for making KEEPING SECRETS IN SEATTLE "rated PG13", and informing me of 'how much better' my books would be if I added more heat...and since I've received such criticism for my other books THE CARNY, THE WHAT IF GUY, and BITTERSWEET...I decided to tackle the subject once and for all. Clear up any misconceptions, and make my position known to all of my amazing readers who have made my writing career so incredibly worthwhile. ♥

First off: What I read and write should have no bearing on what you, as a reader or fellow author, should enjoy. My standards and morals are just that. MINE. They are what makes my life good, happy, and livable, and not intended to be used as a moral compass for anyone else. You should read what you like--whether it be an Amish romance with nary a kiss, or an erotic romance filled to the top with gratuitous sex--and you should make that decision based on your own moral compass, and nobody else's. The decision of where your own moral compass points is between you and your own higher power, no matter what that be. 

Second: When I made the decision to attempt to become a published author, I made a commitment to myself, and my higher power, that I would never write a book that couldn't theoretically be made into a PG13 movie, since that is the highest movie rating I allow myself to watch. This doesn't mean that I have any negative or judgmental feelings towards other authors who write novels of a more erotic or gratuitous nature, it just means that I've found my comfort level, as an author AND a reader, and I've stuck with it. I have friends in the writing world who write erotic romance, and their talent doesn't wane in the slightest. Their stories are every bit as good as mine are--sometimes better--and their careers are every bit as promising as my own. My commitment to writing closed door sex scenes is just that. MY commitment. Nothing more.

Third: I have no qualms about fan fiction at all. If it weren't for the fan fiction culture, I likely wouldn't have ever picked up a pen after years of motherhood and pushing my own dreams to the back burner. Without being inspired by fan fiction, I wouldn't have started writing my own books, which ultimately led to my own successful career. If someone were to write fan fiction devoted to the sex scenes my characters so richly deserved, I would be nothing short of flattered. However, it is important to know, that in *my* imagination, they weren't lacking good sex. Oh, they had it. Probably a few times. I just made the decision--as the author--to turn away and let them have their private moment. So if you stumble across fan fiction devoted to Gabe & Violet, Charlotte & Vin, Leo & Anna, or Henry & Autumn...just know that those scenes are just a small glance into the bedrooms that always existed, I'd just pulled the shades and left them to their own doings, because that's my comfort level as an author. 

And fourth: By committing to write the heat level that I write, I am able to continue participating in religious activities that are important to me, and to my family. Would you approach someone of the Jewish faith with a plate of pork, then chastise and taunt them for not partaking? Would you approach a woman of muslim faith and berate her for keeping her body so covered? I would hope that your answer is no. Here in America, we have religious freedom--a freedom that our forefathers and ancestors fought long and hard for. My religious beliefs are of the utmost importance to me, and I expect to be treated with the same religious tolerance that I've shown to my fellow Americans. If I don't question your beliefs, and why you do (or don't do) certain things, then please respect mine. Every person has a higher power--whether it be God, mother earth, themselves, or somewhere in between--and since we're free to believe whatever we want, we should show religious tolerance to ALL. Don't question or make fun of my beliefs because you're frustrated that I didn't write about my character's climax, and I won't question why you do the things you do. Seems like a fair trade.

I hope that this clarifies why I write the way I write, and I hope that this squashes any misconceptions that I am in any way judging readers or other authors for writing and/or enjoying books with a higher heat level than what is found in my books. I wish EVERY author out there all the luck in the world, and I wish every reader out there happy reading--no matter what your comfort level is. Find where you are the most comfortable, and read it. It's as simple as that. And to everyone whose comfort level is different from yours, bid them respect. The world of books is big enough for all of us, so live and let live.

Thanks for listening.
xxoo Brooke

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Good reviews make me happy. Well, so do crappy ones, actually, that means someone's READING my books!

Woot, woot! Here's a review I'd like to tattoo to my ample backside... 

"Quirky, Hilarious, Compelling, Hard-To-Put-Down! Dammit. I had to stay up until 1 am to see what happened with Violet and Gabe and Landon.
Brooke Moss can weave a tale so beautifully, it makes me wonder where she's been and why she isn't up there on the NY Times Bestseller list. I have no doubt she will be after this book catches on. Between the compelling tension of whether Violet will get her life straightened out, are moments of hilarity and fun that you don't want to miss. KSinS reads like a Downtown Contemporary Women's Fiction, not just for gals with tatoos and pink hair but for any woman who has ever experience unrequited love. This story has something for everyone in it without seeming like there is too much going on. Read it, you'll laugh out loud, guaranteed."

Thanks, Kim H., wherever you are! From your lips, to God's ears... ;)

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